I need some honest advice-please help?

first feeling alone is common. The only way to get rid of that feeling is to not be alone. Have an active life. You have to get rid of your low self esteem. You have limiting beliefs, from experience i can tell you women are way more interested in personality. That is one good thing about being a male. Physical characteristics are prob fourth on the list. You are the one that makes your weight a problem. Sure some women won't like it but who cares, there are plenty more out there. you are concentrating on one women, don't do that you are setting yourself up for heartache. and don't buy her flowers or choc. dude that's not cool. you are not even dating or anything you come off as a stalker or creepy. The number one thing women love is confidence. I am a four out of ten and i have no problem getting women. if you start acting like a catch they will treat you like one. Don't hope that someone will say yes, know that they want to hang out with you because you are worth it. Don't act like a needy little wuss who needs attention from women to be happy. no matter what happens you will be happy alone or with someone.